well ...
a lot of my friends r curious 'bout how Patrick tried to woo mi...
hmm.. i can jus say thay it is an epic /dramatic story which jus cannot be expressed by juz using words or speech .. It muz be felt to understand the love we has for each other.. into such a warm , compassionate and understanding relationship....
so yea .. plz don't pester mi to tell .. cos i can't .. ;p

another thing .. i took the LRT for the first time on my own todae .. felt like i'm riding a mini roller coaster in medium speed .. I held the handle bar so hard til my hands r red.. cos scared .. sigh ... i felt so much like a little gal todae ..

and hmm... to my dear :

Words can't express my gratitude
for loving me despite my weaknesses,
healing my broken heart ,
and shaping my misconceptions.
You brought joy and warmth into my soul,
giving me confidence to live my life to the fullest-
everyday.
People may tink that we r pathetic fools in love ,
To me , U r my significant half.
tho' Time may mock us when we r together,
in time to come ,we shall have precious moments
for eternity.

I love u forever, darling.

cheng posted at 3/31/2004 11:37:00 pm.

tired, euphoric , elated and jubilant.

cheng posted at 3/30/2004 11:03:00 pm.

Yea ! Chalet wif my darling finish liao ... got friends come .. Thzs so much Peiling and MinSin!!
make my dae.. now in elated state .. or something u call euphoria ~ ... ..juz both of us quite tired.

cheng posted at 3/30/2004 12:56:00 pm.

Oh man. wat a dae .
1st -- got up early to settle application to the NTU and NUS .. Com was damned slow and had to restart a lot of times just to send the appln in. Worse still, printer low on ink and i everytime print wrongly
2nd ... so happie settled score wif the appln and the com .. den got out to take something back from my previous company .... Wa!!! got drenched from waist to toe... somemore i wear white dress .. got ppl so bad mocked me at the entrance .. sob .. i feel disastrous!!!! My umbrella got ripped off at it's hinges.. this is the umpteenth time i broke my umbrella .. oh well..
3rd..... went out to meet my darling.. When i stepped out of my hse , the weather was fine .. when i come outta the lift and into the open ... Lightning flashed dangerously n the rain started to pour.. Sometimes i wonder ... is the weather mocking me or wat ?

the onli good ting tat happened to mi was my dear. He hugged away all my worries and sadness and kissed away to forget all those bad memories i had todae... Oh dear .. I tink I'm falling hard for u .

cheng posted at 3/26/2004 11:48:00 pm.

yea. Decided on the course i'm gonna apply liao.
tomorrow i'll do the application.
1st choice : NUS FASS -psychology
2nd choice: NTU Maritime studies(shipping)
3rd choice: NUS FASS - info and comm. mgm.

hmm... i've found an article i read in a book interesting :

Cognitive Dissonance
In a classic piece of research into cognitive dissonance ppl were either paid $1 or $20 to complete a boring task and then tell the next person in line that the task was really enjoyable.The interesting finding was that ppl who were paid $1 rate the task as more enjoyable than those who were paid $20.The explanation of this in terms of cognitive dissonance is that ppl who receive onli $1 experienced considerable dissonance and had either to change their attitudes towards the task or admit that they were exploited in terms of performing a boring task for little reward.People tended to modify their view of the task and see it as less boring than it really was.

cheng posted at 3/25/2004 09:12:00 pm.

starting to miss my workplace already... todae last dae of work ... It's funnie ..
i missed the cramped workspace ,the isolation , the toilets ,the teas i used to drink ... sigh .. *sob *

cheng posted at 3/22/2004 03:32:00 pm.

I took a test by a team of professionals... and this is wat came out :

All Guardians (SJs) share the following core characteristics:

Guardians pride themselves on being dependable, helpful, and hard-working.
Guardians make loyal mates, responsible parents, and stabilizing leaders.
Guardians tend to be dutiful, cautious, humble, and focused on credentials and traditions.
Guardians are concerned citizens who trust authority, join groups, seek security, prize gratitude, and dream of meting out justice.
Guardians are the cornerstone of society, for they are the temperament given to serving and preserving our most important social institutions. Guardians have natural talent in managing goods and services--from supervision to maintenance and supply--and they use all their skills to keep things running smoothly in their families, communities, schools, churches, hospitals, and businesses.

Guardians can have a lot of fun with their friends, but they are quite serious about their duties and responsibilities. Guardians take pride in being dependable and trustworthy; if there's a job to be done, they can be counted on to put their shoulder to the wheel. Guardians also believe in law and order, and sometimes worry that respect for authority, even a fundamental sense of right and wrong, is being lost. Perhaps this is why Guardians honor customs and traditions so strongly--they are familiar patterns that help bring stability to our modern, fast-paced world.
Practical and down-to-earth, Guardians believe in following the rules and cooperating with others. They are not very comfortable winging it or blazing new trails; working steadily within the system is the Guardian way, for in the long run loyalty, discipline, and teamwork get the job done right. Guardians are meticulous about schedules and have a sharp eye for proper procedures. They are cautious about change, even though they know that change can be healthy for an institution. Better to go slowly, they say, and look before you leap.

Guardians make up as much as 40 to 45 percent of the population, and a good thing, because they usually end up doing all the indispensible but thankless jobs the rest of us take for granted.

The four types of Guardians are:


Inspectors | Protectors | Providers | Supervisors

This is from a web service from www.advisorteam.com/. To noe the full story of your analysis if u have taken the free test like mine , u have to purchase a book ... details call my hp no. It is a very accurate test .

cheng posted at 3/21/2004 04:42:00 pm.

From the day that I saw you
I knew that we would pursue
Cause the chemistry
we felt that day
Felt so real, and so true
Looking back on a year
we spent together
How it ’s been, what
we went through
Although we ’ve had our
little ups and downs
We’ve still pulled through

My love for you will never end
You ’ll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps
on passing by
You ’ll always be my baby boy.

Everytime I look at you,
I can ’t believe
I’ve found a love so true (and)
I took my time to put
my trust in you
I must admit it was so hard to do
And every minute that I
spend with you
You make me believe I
have nothing to lose and
Deep down I always knew
that you would be mine

If you were to go, I don’t know
You’re the only one who
sweeps me off my feet
Makes my soul go weak
The only one who makes
my heart wanna beat and I,
I could never live without you
You know that what I feel
has to be true
Cause you’re my, my sweet love

yea. ur always my baby boyz dear....

cheng posted at 3/19/2004 09:51:00 pm.

sigh..work work n more work piling .. ~stressed~
dunno when it'd all end .. my heart sliced into pieces yesterdae ..
quarrelled wif my dear ...lucky we patched our heart back again ..
so now heart a bit sore , but nevertheless fine ... *ouch* todae
gonna do handicraft n play MU online again .. n haf a good rest ...

cheng posted at 3/19/2004 03:09:00 pm.

sigh... my superior came down with a pulled ligament on her feet ... feel sad for her ..she's seeing the doc now ..
mi even worse... stomach cramps and back muscle ache also muz work ... sigh .. hmm.. a lot of my collegues
and my superior commented that I wear so sexy todae... din noe i look tat xin4 gan3 when i wear a blue petite dress..
yesterdae .. nice appointment ;p ... play a new game called MU online.. 2d game but veri nice n addictive..

cheng posted at 3/17/2004 11:32:00 am.

omigosh! todae he came to my hse!! yea! .. hmm..
His touch, hugsz n kisses r the best! He missed me ...
So do I ...

cheng posted at 3/15/2004 11:38:00 pm.

burning ... burning .. CDs burning lotsa .. well.. u get the idea .. Tink todae gotta work OT ..
sunnie .. den rain n rain n rain ... dunno if the weather is mocking me a not .. well.. the company wants me to extend my stay here for 'bout 2-3 daes lo ..(my extension supposed to end todae) .. I accepted the terms provided i dun haf to work tomorrow (got smthing imp to attend to *wink*)... they said okie lo .. so i ok lo ... =))

cheng posted at 3/15/2004 04:02:00 pm.

all those memories ...
1) primary school -- the beloved jackfruit tree i will always treasure . rain or shine . Now with the new sch renovated , i feel like appealing to allow kids to grow a jackfruit tree.
2) all those routes i 'll often take -- towards my house , the infamous shop which sell our fav things when we're young , the mama shops where i purchase my small sweet treats , the cool breeze tat blows ... the beautiful sunset and sunrise, the place where my ex-bf and my first love waited for me and spent wif me...
3) my house area .. all the familiar steps , next blk. relatives ... the sense of HOME SWEET HOME ..
4) Run routes.

Sigh.. gg to shift house ... leaving all these memories behind . Goodbye school. Goodbye routes. Goodbye shops. Goodbye my fav garden. Goodbye places. Goodbye runs .

cheng posted at 3/14/2004 01:10:00 pm.

Since I'm in Soka Gakkai, I tot i beta write something meaningful in my blog ...
b4 one dae i cease to exist .hmm.. lemme tink first ...*tinks hard*
Ah HA!
[ Regardless of what storms may blow , what angry waves may threaten, you must keep shining at all times with
a pure and steady light.] ~Sensei Daisaku Ikeda
[The star tat governs ur own destiny is in ur own heart. Watever one's circumstances, watever one's past, the star of destiny,the forces tat determine one's future , are nowhere but in the heart and the mind of the individual.]

cheng posted at 3/12/2004 04:59:00 pm.

Oh man . curfew no sms or call after 10pm ...
tinking of gg to arch . but even my father is against it ..
well... bad results usually have tat kind of reaction...
even if i make it to arch .. dunno whether got enuff $$ or heart to leave sing.
for overseas a not .. sigh. Work stress too. Very mind draining.
awaiting for next week chalet n rest. *frustrated , drained and tired.*

cheng posted at 3/11/2004 11:07:00 pm.

yea! finally has my new tag board .. !! anyone pls feel free to tag...

cheng posted at 3/06/2004 01:53:00 pm.

Heart of Gold


What is Your Heart REALLY Made of?
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cheng posted at 3/06/2004 01:37:00 pm.

okie ... B3(GP)C(MATH.C)C(ECON KILLER PAPER)C(PHYSICS UNFINISHED) ....
can get to U .. stil have a chance in architecture... but i gave up that dream liao.
now wanna be software engineer ... at least no need to go overseas to study...
earn more $$ too... sigh .. my dream -- archi-- i'll try .. but if cannot .. i'm gg for
software engineer liao.

cheng posted at 3/05/2004 11:14:00 pm.

okie... time to take control of myself from being overly anxious .
u done ur best marie , went for lessons while others ponk,
attended lessons even though i'm the only one left in class ,
did constant study n revision . tutored friends in GP , Have the gohonzon!!
yup . now need to do lotsa daimoku . .watever results come out leave it to
gohonzon , fate n destiny.

cheng posted at 3/04/2004 10:29:00 pm.

sigh..tomorrow results out .. dunno if I'll be laughing or crying ..better get prepared for the worst... arghhh!

cheng posted at 3/04/2004 03:12:00 pm.

Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?
I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life


i spent time wif my darling todae. talked and snuggle at the playground.
talked 'bout serious tings . when we talked , our bond strengthened ,n
we r as closer as ever.

cheng posted at 3/01/2004 11:50:00 pm.