these days has been a nightmare for mi .
cannot find a proper job . tuition job finished this week.
sigh. tired of sending resume, gg for job interviews, making cold calls .
maybe my expectations too high .maybe .
but one thing i know is that i am worried about three things
1) cannot find a job soon (ppl go : u ar , wat u work as har .. ? I'll just crap anything or change the topic) it is shameful living at home w/o any job)
2) cannot do well for my guitar audition ( dominic's solo pieces i memorised 2 instead of 1, but my own solo piece i thinking of scraping it )
3) been a not so good gf to my tamer so far , been throwing tantrums and complaining of fatigue

these worries has been giving mi nightmares everyday.
wish i could just relax.

cheng posted at 5/25/2005 12:32:00 pm.

SOme song i liked todae:suits my mood for the day.
Angels Or Devils
this is the last timethat I'm ever gonna come here tonightthis is the last time - I will fall into a place that fails us all - insideI can see the pain in youI can see the love in youbut fighting all the demons will take timeit will take timethe angels they burn inside for us are we ever are we ever gonna learn to flythe devils they burn inside of usare we ever gonna come back down come aroundI'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us coldthis is the last time that I'm ever gonna give in tonightare there angels or devils crawling here?I just want to know what blurs and what is clear - to see still I can see the pain in youand I can see the love in youand fighting all the demons will take timeit will take timethe angels they burn inside for us are we ever are we ever gonna learn to flythe devils they burn inside of usare we ever gonna come back down - come around I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break usif I was to give in - give it up- and thentake a breath - make it deepcause it might be the last one you getbe the last one that could make us coldyou know that they could make us coldI'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

cheng posted at 5/16/2005 06:46:00 pm.

these few days been busy. Apart from emotional issues, i been stranded by a student taking English lessons from me. Todae finally had time to go out to sentosa after my exams . Enjoy ppl playing competitive beach volleyball, natural species of mankind(go figure) , drank vodka sprite while reading the newspapers , saw ppl catching small fish as pets and canoeing . Mi got bored of the beachy affair and den start to go to the ranches . Got a trial ride for beginning lessons . learnt how to stop a horse , canter, trot , move the horse left and right, and slow jog. Hee. It was gg so well till the horse jerked around , thrashing wildly to find a means of escape due to an charging horse towards it from the other far end of the field . The trainer next to mi was not alert and I had to hang on to the reins for my dear life. A thrilling experience. will upload the pics for u guys and gals later.

cheng posted at 5/15/2005 11:55:00 pm.

HUrting Is Nothing .
To a certain TarGet
With A CerTain aIm
If the Aim MisSed only By a lIttTle,
The cOnsEqUeNces will be UnperCeivable
TurNing Back The Time will Not help
BringIng forWard the Time ?
Nah. LitTle EffEct.
So the HunTer Gotta Be patIent and aCCurate
StriKing It's prey May not Be good
U may End uP with More tHorNs oN your Flesh
tHen u aLreadY have.
But miSSing thE prey?
U gottA adMit defeat.

cheng posted at 5/01/2005 10:55:00 am.